New Beginnings, New Demons

It's been so long. Since the last post I have picked up my life and relocated to Cherry Valley, California. It's different. All new experiences come with new emotions. New challenges. I find myself craving stability. Some consistency. My brain puts up a daily fight against me posing the same challenges that I struggled with back home. I came to Cali with a prayer in my heart that I could find some peace. Just a taste of tranquility. California has been a blessing but it's hard to see through my constant emotional fog. I find myself pleading to the heavens to just wipe my mind clear. My brain has been at a constant hum turned up to max volume. So many voices blended into what sounds like white noises at top volume. No music is loud enough to drown out the noise of my own brain betraying me. No amount of positive mantra can cut through the chaos. So I keep going. I try to put on a brave face and face everyday. I keep going. I face my demons head on with the hope that someday that peace will come.